Hello friends I've been really down lately with feelings of loneliness and disappointment. I' just need a space to be brutally honest cuz sometimes I feel friends always want to hear a fairytale but I can only relate what's happening to me. I've been baptized for 16 years and I feel.like I stopped living 16 years ago. I literally do nothing in terms of recreation I tried my best to raise my children the best way I was thought now my son hardly ever attends meeting and my daughter is loosing in... moreHello friends I've been really down lately with feelings of loneliness and disappointment. I' just need a space to be brutally honest cuz sometimes I feel friends always want to hear a fairytale but I can only relate what's happening to me. I've been baptized for 16 years and I feel.like I stopped living 16 years ago. I literally do nothing in terms of recreation I tried my best to raise my children the best way I was thought now my son hardly ever attends meeting and my daughter is loosing interest daily. they complain that they love Jehovah but they just want to live. TBH I'm ashamed to say but I feel the same way I miss laughter I miss fun I miss my family I'm typing this in tears I'm trying my best to hold on but it's sooo hard I belong to a congregation that does nothing we are not even friends only at the KH most ppl haven't come back to the hall they are still on zoom. If I try to tell someone how I feel it's always do more bible reading etc. but it's not working and I dunno where to start to fix it because there's no one to do anything with.. I'm so tired on boredom and I don't always want to sing kingdom songs or play bible games. I had a really good friend but she left with her kids because she saw her daughter's mental health was being affected among other things. Most of the young adults who were once apart of the congregation live such messed up lives worst off than they were before they were in the organization. Most of us came into the org with our kids and have lost them. Satan has really done a number on us. I'm tired but I'm really trying my best to hold on to Jehovah however, I have moments like these were I feel the need to just scream.
AdminI think when you have had a social life with friends outside the truth and are then expected to dump them in return for this new “loving family” and somehow no matter how hard you try you don’t fit in your left feeling somewhat deflated . There’s no meet ups for a coffee, no going shopping or kids playing together. It all centres around the Kingdom Hall, I’ve lost two friends who came into the truth the same time I did, one hung herself because of depression leaving to young children behind, the... moreI think when you have had a social life with friends outside the truth and are then expected to dump them in return for this new “loving family” and somehow no matter how hard you try you don’t fit in your left feeling somewhat deflated . There’s no meet ups for a coffee, no going shopping or kids playing together. It all centres around the Kingdom Hall, I’ve lost two friends who came into the truth the same time I did, one hung herself because of depression leaving to young children behind, the other had a mental breakdown and fell away. I know not all congregations are the same, but when they’re cold they’re lifeless and it can be so lonely.
I went through this in my earlier years of studying, I felt an emptiness I’d cry myself to sleep, it was very hard having nobody especially when your friends have fallen away and the other died. My kids too found the social life empty, not allowed after school sports yet not invited to anything by the brothers. I feel it’s even worse now and I believe it’s because the love of the greater number has grown cold.
One thing I never done was cut off my worldly family like my brother and his children, my children who are grown now, even their friends I welcome as I want them to see me as a true Christian that doesn’t judge, I speak to them about the world conditions and they see things changing. I’m always warning my children and grandchildren about the dangers of this world. They know my faith in Jehovah is strong and it’s seeing them being aware of what’s unfolding that has kept me strong too. I understand why they can’t be in the truth right now, because they have expressed the same sadness that I did, it will be very hard for any youngster now coming or remaining in the truth, because the org do not highlight the true dangers of what’s really going on this world, they don’t provide any outlet or community for the children, so it’s for us to try and provide that for them what ever way we can so as to not have them lost to the world or have mental break downs from isolation. It’s not easy sister, but tell them we’re so close to the end now, the new system is when the real joy will begin, because even the joy worldly people appear to be having isn’t real, it’s all out of desperation people trying to hold on to a dying world. Soon we will experience the real life, keep strong dear sister your definitely not alone 🙏🏼😘xx
