Hello friends I've been really down lately with feelings of loneliness and disappointment. I' just need a space to be brutally honest cuz sometimes I feel friends always want to hear a fairytale but I can only relate what's happening to me. I've been baptized for 16 years and I feel.like I stopped living 16 years ago. I literally do nothing in terms of recreation I tried my best to raise my children the best way I was thought now my son hardly ever attends meeting and my daughter is loosing in...  moreHello friends I've been really down lately with feelings of loneliness and disappointment. I' just need a space to be brutally honest cuz sometimes I feel friends always want to hear a fairytale but I can only relate what's happening to me. I've been baptized for 16 years and I feel.like I stopped living 16 years ago. I literally do nothing in terms of recreation I tried my best to raise my children the best way I was thought now my son hardly ever attends meeting and my daughter is loosing interest daily. they complain that they love Jehovah but they just want to live. TBH I'm ashamed to say but I feel the same way I miss laughter I miss fun I miss my family I'm typing this in tears I'm trying my best to hold on but it's sooo hard I belong to a congregation that does nothing we are not even friends only at the KH most ppl haven't come back to the hall they are still on zoom. If I try to tell someone how I feel it's always do more bible reading etc. but it's not working and I dunno where to start to fix it because there's no one to do anything with.. I'm so tired on boredom and I don't always want to sing kingdom songs or ply bible games. I'm tired but I'm really trying my best to hold on to Jehovah however, I have moments like these were I feel the need to just scream.  

Hello friends I've been really down lately with feelings of loneliness and disappointment. I' just need a space to be brutally honest cuz sometimes I feel friends always want to hear a fairytale but I can only relate what's happening to me. I've been baptized for 16 years and I feel.like I stopped living 16 years ago. I literally do nothing in terms of recreation I tried my best to raise my children the best way I was thought now my son hardly ever attends meeting and my daughter is loosing in...  moreHello friends I've been really down lately with feelings of loneliness and disappointment. I' just need a space to be brutally honest cuz sometimes I feel friends always want to hear a fairytale but I can only relate what's happening to me. I've been baptized for 16 years and I feel.like I stopped living 16 years ago. I literally do nothing in terms of recreation I tried my best to raise my children the best way I was thought now my son hardly ever attends meeting and my daughter is loosing interest daily. they complain that they love Jehovah but they just want to live. TBH I'm ashamed to say but I feel the same way I miss laughter I miss fun I miss my family I'm typing this in tears I'm trying my best to hold on but it's sooo hard I belong to a congregation that does nothing we are not even friends only at the KH most ppl haven't come back to the hall they are still on zoom. If I try to tell someone how I feel it's always do more bible reading etc. but it's not working and I dunno where to start to fix it because there's no one to do anything with.. I'm so tired on boredom and I don't always want to sing kingdom songs or play bible games. I'm tired but I'm really trying my best to hold on to Jehovah however, I have moments like these were I feel the need to just scream.  

Hello friends I've been really down lately with feelings of loneliness and disappointment. I' just need a space to be brutally honest cuz sometimes I feel friends always want to hear a fairytale but I can only relate what's happening to me. I've been baptized for 16 years and I feel.like I stopped living 16 years ago. I literally do nothing in terms of recreation I tried my best to raise my children the best way I was thought now my son hardly ever attends meeting and my daughter is loosing in...  moreHello friends I've been really down lately with feelings of loneliness and disappointment. I' just need a space to be brutally honest cuz sometimes I feel friends always want to hear a fairytale but I can only relate what's happening to me. I've been baptized for 16 years and I feel.like I stopped living 16 years ago. I literally do nothing in terms of recreation I tried my best to raise my children the best way I was thought now my son hardly ever attends meeting and my daughter is loosing interest daily. they complain that they love Jehovah but they just want to live. TBH I'm ashamed to say but I feel the same way I miss laughter I miss fun I miss my family I'm typing this in tears I'm trying my best to hold on but it's sooo hard I belong to a congregation that does nothing we are not even friends only at the KH most ppl haven't come back to the hall they are still on zoom. If I try to tell someone how I feel it's always do more bible reading etc. but it's not working and I dunno where to start to fix it because there's no one to do anything with.. I'm so tired on boredom and I don't always want to sing kingdom songs or play bible games. I had a really good friend but she left with her kids because she saw her daughter's mental health was being affected among other things. Most of the young adults who were once apart of the congregation live such messed up lives worst off than they were before they were in the organization. Most of us came into the org with our kids and have lost them. Satan has really done a number on us. I'm tired but I'm really trying my best to hold on to Jehovah however, I have moments like these were I feel the need to just scream.